Not that I would want or dissuade them in either case. Publicity is good, but this place serves as a repositorim for my collective thoughts that aren't "factual data" Concerning Devidica. On that note; Lets head onward!
Regarding Andril; He might be geeting his own book detailing his own struggle. His time-set would be a very "Modern" world where "magic" is being forgotten. Imagine if magical power was something that was Very real back in King Arthur's time, and that all these witches and trolls and such we hear about in fair tails are simply forgotten, and therefore dissmissed as myths and fantasy. That's what happens to Devidica. Magic dies out in favor of Technology and people simply forget magic. Some time down the road, only radicals suggest magic as a means to do anything, and only lunatics practice it. A while later, people deny its factual nature, and it becomes fantasy.
I don't know exactly how the loss of magic plays into how people come to preceive themselves, whether for better for worse. Andril would live around the time where only Lunatics would know about/practice magic. Which makes me wonder--What about Hereditary Magic? What happens to fairies? Angels? Deities!? THE WORLD MAY NEVER KNOW!
Now to vent. Lately, I've had a chesty red-head on my mind. The problem is, My wife is blonde, and the particular Red-head in question isn't real.
I'm talking about the first ever Character of Devidica, Saelin La'Mean/La'Mina. If give her too much love, but at the same time, I can't stop loving her. I can safely say that Yosho gets over Saelin's romantic fit for him and moves on with his dour, bull-headed way of doing things. Saelin, on the other had, is torn between humanity and demon-(ity? -icy? -ism?). On one hand, She loves Yosho(She doesn't know that, and if you try to tell her that she
First is Love. Hidden to her heart because of all the other garbage. Demons of her kind are neither caring or kind in any sense, and the emotional phenomea called "Love" is drastiscally opposed to her very being.
Instead, she gets something along the lines of "Loyalty", prompting her to act in his name, and do things as she might veiw him doing. However, she remembers a 16-18 year old boy. She's at least 50 or more years old. I never determined her actual age. Age aside, She's a freaking demon. One of the most feared and powerful demons to walk Devidica. Why is she LOYAL to some piece of trash like Yosho!?
This is half of the fuel for her Hatred for him. Her pride as a superior being makes her cry out against her situation. She can't be loyal to food. Would you follow a chicken wing's commands without question? (Don't answer that....) Saelin's mind is set up to see Human's as tools and food. She is supposed to have hot, wild sex with them, have babbies with them, and then kill them. She is the brood mother of an army, not a personal soldier to the enemy. On that note, Saelin is a virgin. She enjoys killing too much to ever get close enough to "get down to bussiness", its all pleasure for her--and not her partner.
Which is the other half of her hate for Yosho. Just plain innate hatred for him. He is a human and tool, as explained above. Brushing the pride and emotions aside (Which are mostly Yosho's fault for her having them), Yosho is her lesser, and therefore food/tools. A lion doesn't veiw a hyena as a friend. They are rivals, and in the lion's case, the hyena is food. Saelin is the Lion. Yosho is the Hyena. Their species demand they hate and kill each other, so its simply within Saelin's nature to hate hate hate.
Saelin also feels a bit of guilt when she's around Saelin, something a prideful demon like her is deffinately NOT accostomed to. She enjoys and thrives on pain, torturing others, and killing. We like excersice, playing games and socializing. She likes killing, torturing and watching others suffer. She is a sadist. To her, these are very natural feelings that "Feel right". Reversing the roles, if we were thrust into a world where killing, torturing and such was normal and the "right" thing to do, we would be like a fish out of water. It would feel "Wrong" and our very human nature of banding together and forming packs would be horribly opposed to it. Saelin feels that way about Yosho's set of "Morals", which is pretty much "No killing, No Torture. No Fun" Saelin doesn't like this, but she likes/is loyal to Yosho, and therefore doesn't oppose him, but rather herself. While people certainly can change in extream situations to be loner-savages like Saelin, lone heroboy Yosho is all that extream, esspecially to a demon.
But despite all this, I want saelin to be happy, much like a father wants a misunderstood daughter to "Shape up" and find a good husband...or something like that. I don't know how that works out yet. What I do know is that Saelin lives a very unhappy life and is searching for a happiness she can't define; meaning someone else must find it for her. I desparately want there to be a "Someone else" for Saelin. I don't care who, a lesbian lover, a strong manly hero, a twigy man, religion, ideals, philosophy--Something. But I simply cannot fathom what would cause the proud, exiled demon to humble herself to the point of asking for help which such a big emotional goal. She doesn't even know what she wants. She hates people, still; only Yosho hold's the key to opening up her spiky, hateful cold heart. Yosho doesn't really think much about her after she leaves. He certainly doesn't look for her for too long since she was a bloodthirsty demon. The keymaster ditches the gate keeper to do other things.
This leaves me at a terrible place. Saelin is stuck with all this pain and emotion she can't do anything with, and I'm stuck trying to imagine, picture, and empathize with it and its tragic setting. I hate it. I want happiness. I want Saelin to be able to revel in her new-found freedom and perhaps have kids, and a happy family. But she can't, and it hurts to the point of giving me headaches. It makes me question just how much of an Anti-Hero Yosho is. How many lives has he saved, only to be destroyed more painfully later?
The problem is, the closer I get to Saelin, the more danger is posed. She is not Yosho's lady, she is her own person. I can't thank of her as a human to be loved, or she
--Actually on that note, Yosho very-muchso enjoys Saelin's natural aptitude for combat, since he's very comfortable fighting and such. Its the pleasure Saelin derives from killing that makes Yosho uneasy. If she wasn't a freaking demon, Yosho would totally have a crush on Saelin. Which makes keeping him away from her that much harder.
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